I read the other day some
verses written by an eminent painter which were original and not
conventional. The soul always hears an admonition in such lines, let the
subject be what it may. The sentiment they instill is of more value than
any thought they may contain.
To believe your own thought,
to believe that what is true for you in your private heart is true for
all men,--that is genius. Speak your latent conviction, and it shall be
the universal sense; for the inmost in due time becomes the
outmost,--and our first thought is rendered back to us by the trumpets
of the Last Judgment.
Familiar as the voice of the
mind is to each, the highest merit we ascribe to Moses, Plato, and
Milton is that they set at naught books and traditions, and spoke not
what men, but what they thought.
A man should learn to detect
and watch that gleam of light which flashes across his mind from within,
more than the lustre of the firmament of bards and sages. Yet he
dismisses without notice his thought, because it is his. In every work
of genius we recognize our own rejected thoughts: they come back to us
with a certain alienated majesty.
Great works of art have no
more affecting lesson for US than this. They teach us to abide by our
spontaneous impression with good-humored inflexibility then most when
the whole Cry of voices is on the other side. Else, to-morrow a stranger
will say with masterly good sense precisely what we have thought and
felt all the time, and we shall be forced to take with shame our own
opinion from another.
There is a time in every man's
education when he arrives at the conviction that envy is ignorance; that
imitation is suicide; that he must take himself for better for worse as
his portion; that though the wide universe is full of good, no kernel of
nourishing corn can come to him but through his toil bestowed on that
plot of ground which is given to him to till.
The power which resides in him
is new in nature, and none but he knows what that is which he can do,
nor does he know until he has tried. Not for nothing one face, one
character, one fact makes much impression on him, and another none. This
sculpture in the memory is not without preéstablished harmony. The eye
was placed where one ray should fall, that it might testify of that
particular ray.
We but half express ourselves,
and are ashamed of that divine idea which each of us represents. It may
be safely trusted as proportionate and of good issues, so it be
faithfully imparted, but God will not have his work made manifest by
cowards.
A man is relieved and gay when
he has put his heart into his work and done his best; but what he has
said or done otherwise shall give hint no peace. It is a deliverance
which does not deliver. In the attempt his genius deserts him; no muse
befriends; no invention, no hope.
Trust thyself: every heart
vibrates to that iron string. Accept the place the divine providence has
found for your the society of your contemporaries, the connection of
events.
Great men have always done so,
and confided themselves childlike to the genius of their age, betraying
their perception that the absolutely trustworthy was seated at their
heart, working through their hands, predominating in all their being.
And we are now men, and must
accept in the highest mind the same transcendent destiny; and not minors
and invalids in a protected corner, not cowards fleeing before a
revolution, but guides, redeemers, and benefactors, obeying the Almighty
effort, and advancing on Chaos and the Dark.
What pretty oracles nature
yields us on this text, in the face and behavior of children, babes, and
even brutes! That divided and rebel mind, that distrust of a sentiment
because our arithmetic has computed the strength and means opposed to
our purpose, these have not.
Their mind being whole, their
eye is as yet unconquered, and when we look in their faces, we are
disconcerted. Infancy conforms to nobody; all conform to it, so that one
babe commonly makes four or five out of the adults who prattle and play
to it. So God has armed youth and puberty and manhood no less with its
own piquancy and charm, and made it enviable and gracious and its claims
not to be put by, if it will stand by itself. Do not think the youth has
no force, because he cannot speak to you and me. Hark! in the next room
his voice is sufficiently clear and emphatic. It seems he knows how to
speak to his contemporaries. Bashful or bold, then, he will know how to
make us seniors very unnecessary.
The nonchalance of boys who
are sure of a dinner, and would disdain as much as a lord to do or say
aught to conciliate one, is the healthy attitude of human nature. A boy
is in the parlor what the pit is in the playhouse; independent;
irresponsible, looking out from his corner on such people and facts as
pass by, he tries and sentences them on their merits, in the swift,
summary ways of boys, as good, bad, interesting, silly, eloquent.
troublesome. He numbers himself never about consequences, about
interests: he gives an independent, genuine verdict. You must court him:
he does not court you. But the man is, as it were, clapped into jail by
his consciousness. As soon as he has once acted or spoken with éclat,
he is a committed person, watched by the sympathy or the hatred of
hundreds, whose affections must now enter into his account. There is no
althea for this. Ah, that he could pass again into his neutrality! Who
can thus avoid all pledges, and having observed, observe again from the
same unaffected, unbiased, unbribable, unaffrighted innocence, must
always be formidable.
He would utter opinions on all
passing affairs, which being seen to be not private, but necessary,
would sink like darts into the ear of men, and put them in fear.
These are the voices which we
hear in solitude, but they grow faint and inaudible as we enter into the
world. Society everywhere is in conspiracy against the manhood of every
one of its members. Society is a joint-stock company, in which the
members agree, for the better securing of his bread to each shareholder,
to surrender the liberty and culture of the eater.
The virtue in most request is
conformity. Self-reliance is its aversion. It loves not realities and
creators, but names and customs.
Whosoever would be a man, must
be a nonconformist. He who would gather immortal palms must not he
hindered by the name of goodness, but must explore if it he goodness.
Nothing is at last sacred but the integrity of your own mind.
Absolve you to yourself, and
you shall have the suffrage of the world. I remember an answer which
when quite young I was prompted to make to a valued adviser, who was
wont to importune me with the dear old doctrines of the church. On my
saying, What have I to do with the sacredness of traditions, if I live
wholly from within? my friend suggested,--"But these impulses may
be from below, not from above." I replied, "They do not seem
to me to be such; but if I am the Devil's child, I will live then from
the Devil." No law can be sacred to me but that of my nature.
Good and bad are but names
very readily transferable to that or this; the only right is what is
after my constitution, the only wrong what is against it. A man is to
carry himself in the presence of all opposition as if everything were
titular and ephemeral but he. I am ashamed to think how easily we
capitulate to badges and names, to large societies and dead
institutions. Every decent and well-spoken individual affects and sways
me more than is right. I ought to go upright and vital, and speak the
rude truth in all ways. If malice and vanity wear the coat of
philanthropy shall that pass? If an angry bigot assumes this bountiful
cause of Abolition, and comes to me with his last news from Barbados why
should I not say to him, "Go love thy infant; love thy
wood-chopper; be good-natured and modest: have that grace; and never
varnish your hard, uncharitable ambition with this incredible tenderness
for black folk a thousand miles off. Thy love afar is spite at
home." Rough and graceless would he such greeting, but truth is
handsomer than the affectation of love. Your goodness must have some
edge to it,-- else it is none. The doctrine of hatred must be preached
as the counteraction of the doctrine of love when that pules and whines.
I hope it is somewhat better than whim at last, but we cannot spend the
day in explanation.
Expect me not to show cause
why I seek or why I exclude company. Then again, do not tell me, as a
good man did today, of my obligation to put all poor men in good
situations. Are they my poor? I tell thee, thou foolish philanthropists
that I grudge the dollar, the dime, the cent I give to such men as do
not belong to me and to whom I do not belong. There is a class of
persons to whom by all spiritual affinity I am bought and sold; for them
I will go to prisons if need be; but your miscellaneous popular
charities; the education at college of fools; the building of
meeting-houses to the vain end to which many now stand; alms to sots;
and the thousandfold Relief Societies;--though I confess with shame I
sometimes succumb and give the dollar, it is a wicked dollar, which by
and by I shall have the manhood to withhold.
Virtues are, in the popular
estimate, rather the exception than the rule. There is the man and his
virtues. Men do what is called a good action, as some piece of courage
or charity, much as they would pay a fine in expiation of daily
nonappearance on parade. Their works arc done as an apology or
extenuation of their living in the world,--as invalids and the insane
pay a high board. Their virtues are penances. I do not wish to expiate,
but to live. My life is for itself and not for a spectacle. I much
prefer that it should be of a lower strain, so it be genuine and equal,
than that it should be glittering and unsteady. I wish it to be sound
and sweet, and not to need diet and bleeding. I ask primary evidence
that you are a man, and refuse this appeal from the man to his actions.
I know that for myself it makes no difference whether I do or forbear
those actions which are reckoned excellent. I cannot consent to pay for
a privilege where I have intrinsic right. Few and mean as my gifts may
be, I actually am, and do not need for my own assurance or the assurance
of my fellows any secondary testimony.
What I must do is all that
concerns me, not what the people think. This rule, equally arduous in
actual and in intellectual life, may serve for the whole distinction
between greatness and meanness. It is the harder, because you will
always find those who think they know what is your duty better than you
know it. It is easy in the world to live after the world's opinion; it
is easy in solitude to live after our own; but the great man is he who
in the midst of the crowd keeps with perfect sweetness the independence
of solitude.